| Lack of Self ConfidenceHi, I don't know if I'm writing to the correct forum or not but, I really need help. I'm 25 year old engineer working in computer field, I lived simple life during the past period, I was successful in the school and college, through my life most of the things were easy to achieve, my family helped me a lot they pay extra attention to me because I'm the youngest member in the family. The major problem in my life and the source of other problems is the lack of self confidence. Most of the time I'm pessimistic, afraid of doing new things, dislike adventure, very angry, and the most awful thing that sometimes I interpret things and events in a negative way that leads , most of the time, me to take stupid decisions that may ruin my whole career path. For Example, after graduating immediately I started working for a local company (in the middle east), I worked with one of my University colleagues, I was happy in my job, I was doing everything professionally. after a while I started to feel jealous of my colleague, I started to think and realize that the management prefers him, love him more than me, I started to be angry most of the time. After that I started to realize that our female colleagues take care of him more than me, and they prefer to go out with him. These feelings made me angry, anxious, not comfort, so one day I decided to resign from my work and went home until I got new job. During the period of waiting another job I realized that most of the feelings I had were illusions, and I decided to prevent myself from repeating these bad feelings, and to concentrate on my work without making any close relationships with my collegues specially female ones. Now, I'm in the sixth month of the new job, and I'm working in the same department with my best friend. I'm so worried now about my future again, I made a close relationship with one of my female colleagues, started to be jealous about her, I'm so angry with my friend, I lost my tolerance toward him, and some times I understand him wrong which lead to problems between us. I don't want to ruin my career again, I want to be more confident, regarding relationships with girls or female colleagues, I doubt it's based on true admiring but maybe because through my life I wasn't in a real relationship, I never had a sex or even kissed a girl, maybe I'm driven by my internal pressure of my body needs. Finally, I feel that people treat me as a weak guy. I write to a forum for the first time, I really need help. Thanks in advance, and excuse my bad English, I'm still in the learning phase. :) |
