| well, it is really sad, but it is the reality. i am sorry that i cannot give any professional advice, as i am just one of those many victims of domestic violence. it is true that i always wish if my boyfriend would disappear from this world at this moment. my stress level is so high, and the stress level test showed that i can go crazy any momoent. i have been trying that i hate his misbehavior but not him as an individual. but it is hard. i am just hoping that i would not fight against him with some kind of weapons as i really want to avoid such a terrible situation. however, i sometimes cannot stop me from thinking about how i can hurt him physically. it is so sad when i think about the reaction from my family and friends. even if it happens, are they going to understand the reason why i have done such a thing? i doubt it. so, i just hope things will turn out ok for any victims of domestic violence. | 
