| my partner has bipolar hi, i have been with my partner for 7yrs now, she was diagnosed with bipolar only a year ago after being treated for depression for the last 12 yrs.up until she was diagnosed i always just thought it was the person she was, and lived with it as if it was normal, however when she was diagnosed all the symptoms made perfect sense, i thought things would become much easier now that she was receiving treatment and taking medication but unfortunately while iv'e been thinking she has been improving, i now realise she isn't improving as much as she seems, because she is so good at hiding it, and pretending she is fine. it has become increasingly hard to communicate with her, especially if its talking about her bipolar, it seems the worse she is feeling and the more she needs help, the harder it is to help her, as the more she feels like this the more she pushes me away, only making things harder for herself and more frustrating for the people who care about her and truly want to help her. we also have 3 kids who i know she chooses to stay strong for. she is the best mother anyone could ask for, they do get spoilt but thats her choice as a mother as she never had that while she was growing up, our 2 eldest kids both know about her bipolar but not in great detail, they are 9 and 14yrs old, my partner also suffers from anxiety and experiences severe panic attacks i notice stress can be a major trigger for her panic attacks and try so hard to reduce the chance of her getting stressed by doing anything i can, like giving her time to rest, trying to keep the kids entertained when i see them stressing her out, try to just take some responsibility off of her shoulders as i know from time to time, or more than usual lately, that she can't cope, however when she is manic she tends to take on the world, as in , trying to fix everybody elses problems, while now studying psychology at uni, aswell as working 3 days a week, and trying to do everything for the kids and at home, as much as i try to help, she always seems completely blind to it, she will stand there and tell me to my face that i never do anything to help her and that i don't care about her, which is hurtful especially that she appears to truly believe it, but i know i just have to constantly remind myself that it is her bipolar and she doesn't really mean it, at this point in time i am growing inreasingly worried about her and our relationship and i am just trying to find people i can talk to in attempt to be able to learn as much as possible about bipolar and other peoples experiences with the disorder to better prepare myself for the future of my family. |
